Friday, April 24, 2015

On Your Birthday...

 This day makes me so sappy--I am half weepy every year and half so happy and grateful.  But every year I cry for your birth mom.  This lady I do not know, but this lady that gave up so much and in turn, gave me so much.  I think of her as a brave woman.  She carried you to term.  She cared for you as best as she could for several weeks and then she bravely gave you up and placed you at the gate of the best orphanage in Kigali.  I think she's brave.  But I cry for her.  I cry for her because of what must have made her make the decision to give you up.  I cry for her because she doesn't have you any more.  I cannot fathom the hole you would leave in someone's heart forever.

There are so many things that I wish she knew about you.  I'm sure when we get to heaven and get to meet and I begin to tell her stories about her spunky daughter that she will nod her head knowingly because you are probably so much like her and like her mother.  There are so many things I cannot wait to tell her!!

I'd tell her how much better you have made my life--our lives.  You've made this family better in so many ways.  I cannot even imagine us without you--we would be so incomplete.  I'm so thankful for you, Gabby.  I'd tell her how sweet you are and how you have the amazing and unique ability to love people in the way that they need to be loved.  You have figured out how people receive love and you give it to them in that exact way.  For Andy it is through playfulness and banter, for me it is through snuggling.  You are sugar and spice.  I love thinking of you as fluffy overly sweet powderers sugar, but that story would be incomplete without knowing that you are spice--jalepano and cayenne pepper spicy!  You are so funny!  You crack us up all of the time!  You are caring and compassionate.  You are tenacious.  Oh my!  You never give up and you are not afraid to practice until you are perfect.  You are a perfectionist, you know that!  You love big and love well.  You are kind and sweet.  You are scared and timid sometimes and you are brave and bold others.  You're smart and intuitive.  I could go on and on with the amazing qualities you possess.  Your mother would be so proud of you.  I am so proud of you.

Gabby, I love you with all my heart.  I hope that somehow your birth mom knows that you are loved and adored.  I hope she knows somewhere in the depths of her soul that you have a family who would fight for you until the end.  I hope she knows somehow that we love you with a ferocity that would make her proud.

You're my baby girl and nothing in the world could tear you away from me.  I am thankful for you.  I am blessed by you.  You bring a joy and a fullness to my life that wouldn't be here without you.  You put a face and a feeling to being adopted by God as an equal heir.  I love you like you were my own flesh and blood and there is no difference in my eyes or in my heart.  You're mine and I would hold onto you forever if I could.  But I know that you are a butterfly and you'll fly off into the big world someday--that I know for a fact.  I'm thankful that that day is a decade away!

I love you, Goober.  You're make life better every single day!  Happy 8th Birthday!

1 comment:

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